It's a beautiful morning and I have been in a dark place. I find myself wanting so much and not able to do anything "immobile" so to speak. Things are moving along but maybe I want things to happen at a faster pace, they don't. That is just a fact that I must recognise and not let that get the best of me because I have been taking charge of more and more of my life. The taking back of ones life begs the question when did it leave or when did you loose it? As I sit here I almost see how I got here and it simply was because I let it happen. I had a trajectory also know as a "plan" and the one thing I did not do was stay on it all of that would have been ok but I ended up somewhere I did not want to be so now knowing this what to do? I should just ask myself what "I want to do?" That question is so loaded because so many things come to mind but if you have been following this blog you know that I have chosen and I am on my way but here I sit. I am not questioning nor am I stalling which is what I used to think before, before the revelation that what I do is based on inspiration and it's something I can't force, it comes when it comes and I just need to take advantage of it and I do that by having a sketch book at hand and scribble and jot down the ideas when they come it's that simple so now I will not be prone to or open myself up to the darkness that so often takes me and drags me away and it takes me 3 to 4 days wasted on feeding the depressing thoughts that render me immobile and constantly wasting precious time that can be used to become more productive. So what have I learned? Is that time is not free it cost you something in the short or long run it will bear fruit whether you use it or not so even when you are relaxing you can still be productive in fact even just sitting and looking at the sun rise I am flooded with thoughts so what do I do now? I write them down and share them with the few readers that I have..... So find it and do it and don't let time pass you by..
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1 comment:
shipments have been getting larger since you left, wtf? haha... do they usually get larger around this time of year?
also, that jacket i shown you, is rare as f*ck. impossible to get. If i get desperate, we might have to talk at some point this summer on making it happen. but for now i dream.
stay positive, man.
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