I took a nap earlier today and this is the time and I can't get back to sleep. So what do I do? I blog about it. To think that about eight months ago I would have been working cleaning a "gondola" at the place I used to work. I would also be dreaming of having my freedom. At the beginning I did not mind and it took some getting used to but there was a reason. The reason became lost after a year working there then it was just for the money and to tell the truth nothing really got solved but I did meet some nice people and I guess they in there own ways helped me see myself in a better light I understood more of how I had given up on so many things that were and still are of value to me in my life. I had given too much up and what was left was depression and emptiness I forgot how much I enjoyed living and spending time with the people I love. The general sense of all being good and that good things would come my way....but as long as my "two" worlds were colliding I would always be in pain and nothing good would come my way. I did what I needed to do and that was make a choice and start to allow the valuable things back into my life and return to that place where I made the choices and to not simply accept the next best thing when it is really NOT.
I would like to thank the overnight crew for being there when I needed them and for allowing me the opportunity to see me and what was going on with me. The experience was of much more value than any of you will ever know. Hang in there until you find your way but once you do promise yourself that you will take it...
Good night.
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