What can there be going on in my head? I named the blog “look for today” because I wanted to share brief daily thoughts on my experience of the day with a cute picture thrown in just for fun. That never seemed to happen. I took to writing monthly but I poured so much into it that I felt an obligation to keep it always upbeat but I couldn’t because anther objective was to keep it real and as honest as possible without coming across like one who is ready to jump off the nearest bridge, so what I share I want the two of you who read it to know that I am just letting off some frustration and they are just thoughts they do not control me but they have an mild affect on me and trust me I don’t want to die I love life no matter where it takes or leads me even if I am homeless and live on the streets I will always chose life and will be thankful for every day I see no matter what.
I am in essence a lover of life in all its manifestations…in the ups and in the downs I live to get the best out of it all so let me share my latest mind travel.
I have a dream….to even write this is challenging because I now it’s here in cyberspace and it seems as though I wished for it now it has to become real and I don’t want to be disappointed because I have often lost steam (desire) whatever you want to call it even passion, when a few things don’t go right I slow down and take a few steps back and sit. I don’t move for awhile trying to figure out what to do next and in come the “negative ninnies”. I give in and start looking at all the negatives and become totally discouraged and play with the thoughts of just retreating, going back to my everyday life, working and coming home to look at blogs and read articles about fashion also blogs that discuss healthy eating habits and physical activities that will help you live better by making the best choices. I would always be reminded that I don’t make enough money, money it haunts me it has an odd hold on me. I have not had a good relationship with it money has always been something for me to get what I want and that is the only relationship I have had, so when I can’t get what I want then I hate it(money) then becomes my enemy. This has lead me to start reading books on money management and how to make it work for you at any level and how to have a healthy relationship with ‘it” even if you are making the national minimum. I read these books looking for a magic formula and halfway through there is none and I become completely disinterested….moving right along…can’t I just hire someone to take care of it?...ha! I think I need money for that but in the mean time back to the original topic and that is my dream and all I can seem to do is keep heading in that direction and doing all within my reach to make it happen. The goal is to achieve it and I have three years to give it my all because after that I’m hanging it up and moving to Hawaii and working at the local Starbucks and learning how to surf , oh and I will be Fifty by then…So here I go!!!
