Thursday, August 20, 2009

Wondering about strange people


Why are some people like a dog with a bone? They can’t seem to let certain things go and I don’t mean things you’ve done to them just things you’ve shared with them. For example: I was having a bad day at work and I was driving around as is my job. This person calls and asked me how my day was going his going fantastic! The weather is kind he likes sunny and hot I on the other hand do not like this weather it is uncomfortable…and I believe I have written about it in the past needless to say he notices that I seem distracted and I share that I was just sent to the Boston office to handle some business and found it to be in total chaos, that the person we left in charge there had not been following the system and was basically running things his own way and doing as he pleased. I expressed the only reason why I was upset was due to the fact that I had to solve it organize it and get it back in play, sort of get it going in the right direction, when I realized that this was my job and I was not getting paid enough to do this when all I really wanted to do was fire him and retrain someone that would keep it running smoothly and stick with the system…because it works. He always wants to do his own thing and work it to his advantage and screw everyone else so how can you work with someone like this. Who can’t follow or refuses to follow orders? In my book you send him packing “I regretfully have the unpleasant task of informing you that your weak ass services are no longer needed!!!”
I can’t all I can do is report to my superior on Monday when he returns from vacation and let the axe fall where it may but if no change comes about I will go back to my previously quiet existence and enjoy not moving up the stress filled ladder… this conversation (venting) happened on Tuesday and I have all ready moved on to my schedule and what I need to do, when the very next day this person calls me to ask “Hey did anything get resolved?” I answered; no I told you that all of this has to wait until Monday when my boss gets back from his vacation. Then he proceeds, “wow dude you must be pissed, aren’t you?” and at that very moment I realized that, that was what HE wanted he actually called to piss me off again or to get me going….I saw this and quickly said, nope I’m good, all will take care of itself I just have to relay the facts and let the chips fall where they may. That was not enough for him he kept at it pressing, prodding and poking to see what he could get….didn’t give it to him just said “took care of business did what I had to do now it’s in someone else’s hands.” Still to my amazement he kept looking but I did not give it to him and just told him that I had to go and hung up……strange how some people are living through others failures instead of their successes.

Monday, August 3, 2009

Wondering when? But Knowing "Soon" Is The Answer..




Today was a busy day but not a crazy one. I have been waiting for this new job to settle into some sort of flow. The constant go-go-go finally got me last Wednesday, I came home and just crashed, woke up the next day and it felt as though someone was beating me all night...sore all over, needless to say I called in sick wanting to conserve my energy and not let this get me. As soon I could I rushed to Whole Foods and picked up some supplements to go to war on this before it really got me but to no avail it came and I got, got. I had no choice but to let it run it's corse and it did, for three whole days. I never want to feel that again but it was not over, just as I was getting better "WHAM!" I woke up Saturday morning with a crippling pain in my lower back but to the right side. Wow I had never felt anything like it a pain so intense that just writing about it now gives me the chills. As I described to thee nurse the symptoms..she kept saying it sounded like KIDNEY STONES!!!!!! the pain was unbearable I, the pillar of strength that i am was wimping like a little girl. needless to say the doctor came by asked me the same questions the nurse just did...don't they talk to each other? I AM IN PAIN!!!....anyway, after draining me of almost all of my blood and urine...The Verdict!....Mr. Soto we've run tests on both your blood and your urine and you don't have kidney stones..WHEW!..you are suffering from a muscle spasm...What I was brought to my knees by a muscle spasm!?...Damn! that shit hurt!!! finally the nurse drugged me....mmmmm.....sweeeeet...what was that?..Oh just a 0.5cc of morphine...mmmm..gimme more wow this shit is good...no more pain. One hour and a half I was let go with 2 prescriptions one for Motrin and another for a muscle relaxant.


So for the past four days as I faced certain death I began to wonder about all the things I had not done....this seems to be a recurring theme in my writings..am I trying to say something?


Yes! I will no longer leave things that I want to do undone. Today I was so focused and determined to get it done that I had finished and did so with time to prepare for the next days work ...so tomorrow I begin ahead, something a had not been able to do until the sickness got me. I guess it was just my body's way of telling me to slow down, focus get organized then, start.




I hope that by me sharing this little experience that you will take that much needed time before your body does it for you....