"And I'm Feeling Good"...

"Birds in the sky you know how I feel...Sun in the sky you know how I feel....Breeze drifting on by you know how I feel...." These are part of the lyrics from a song by Nina Simone.

She is singing about feeling good. So it got me wondering....what would it take to make you feel good? I ask you to find the song and listen to it. As you listen to the words find out what it is that makes you feel good and add at least ONE thing to your life. I found a had many things that made me feel good, at one time in my life. As I listened to the words and let them flow around in my mind three things came to me. The first was music and i have been adding that back in my life since January. The next one is kind of difficult but I got the answer by asking some one "what they saw me doing?"which lead to the reason why I was stuck for so long.

I was afraid to FAIL, I love this person for being the first person to point me in the right direction...."know the truth and it will set you free"....So now I need to accept failure as part of the journey; so I can add that second thing that makes me feel good.

What will it take to make you feel good.....

What If ?

As I was driving around today I got caught up with..the dreaded " What-If"; UGH!

You know that place where your mind takes you and you don't want to go because you've been there too many times and all it does is depress you. Believe me I tried but eventually I gave in and started wondering....If I had taken that plane to Italy twenty five years ago and followed my dreams to work for a small town tailor, learn the In's and outs of suit making and developed my craft from the ground up. where would I be now and what kind of life would I live?

So here I am and now I would like to ask you, if you had the chance now, today to do exactly what you wanted. To pick up where you left off, would you? If not then why?

Beautiful Day....In Common.

As I ran some errands today, I took a break on the steps of The Public Library and sat back to observe people strolling by and entertained myself as I often do by making up imaginary conversations as they walk by, I started wondering as a "family-pak" dad, mom and the kids trying to find their way with a street map of Boston also the "business-dad" on his lunch break(suit no tie) teaching his son how to throw a yo-yo, the "over-stylized" gays decieding where to have lunch, all meeting up in front of this place and the only thing they had in common was, like me enjoying a beautiful day with people they wanted to be with and then a thought entered my mind that I could enjoy summer but on one condition....that i would have to be independantly wealthy or a bum....taking donations give generously and often...

Not Ready For The Heat

Ugh! I am so not ready for this extreme heat, especially when i have no A.C.

I was trying to nap before I went in to work; but man this HEAT not even with the fan at full tilt.

Wondering...if I had all day to do as I pleased would I mind the heat as much?

If I could lounge right on this balcony with a few friends and an ice cold pitcher of Sangria...mmm

would it be as bad, I bet not..

"Quick Notes"

Hey! heard something odd the other day

Guy#1-"remember when we used to play baseball and there was always a girl that would play and she was pretty good what did we call girls that played sports"?

Guy#2-humm oh! "tom girls", why?

Guy#1-"what did we call they boys who didn't play sports"?

Guy#2-starts to chuckle...."sissies"

they both start to laugh out loud....

ALL this because some eight year old kid ask to wear a white dress for his communion..

I was just wondering....what would you do? Oh by the way; his parents found a Church that would allow it.

Wondering and Driving....

As I drove around today, I started to wonder, wonder if something bigger than us really existed.
The moment I asked that question in my mind I received the answer and it was yes. If this is true then I would like to be on the same frequency that "it" is on, because right now I feel as though I have upset "it" and am on the wrong side of "it".
Please, help me get back on the right side because i don't know what i did and how to get back in it's good graces.

I Was Wondering....

I was wondering something I find myself doing that a lot lately. The question is; do I love Boston or am i just suffering from Stockholm Syndrome. I wonder, can that work with a city? I came from NYC about thirty years ago and spent the first 15 years trying to leave and get back to New York and slowly but surely Boston's quaintness started to appeal to me and little by little I started to refer to it as "home".

I guess it's love because every time I go to any other state I always wanna get back, to the place I now call "home".