Crippled and lead down a road none of them ever dreamed of choosing. As sad as all that sounds it affords me a glimpse into my possible future if I do not take decisive action and get involved in a more conscience way in my life. To stop letting things happen and then reacting to them I need to pursue the things that I would like, so herein lay the rub, if God is in control then all I plan and want may not be His plan for me and how can He make that obvious to me? I believe He closes doors, such as He is doing now with the termination of the position I hold at my current place of employment. As if to say “go there is nothing here for you, enough wasting time” now all I do is apply to positions I see myself doing , but without my heart just with all the logic I can muster, the positions that can allow me to climb and obtain a higher salary and more outward stability and security. I have also applied to one dream position and I say dream because it is part of the industry I am strongly drawn to but I have none of the new qualifications they require, I do it every time one appears just to see if He wants me back there….. The picture above helps me remember that their is still beauty around no matter how ugly things seem to be getting i will always hold on to hope...