Decisions.... Constant Calling...

    Life has presented me with a true test of faith, will and belief I have never seen it as clear as I do now. Life is calling and I once again am possessed by strong doubts based on things witnessed or the talk all around as to how bad the economy is and how there are no fashion design companies in Boston that I can reach by public transportation and that I don’t have a car and on and on all the negative thoughts pop into my head and the obvious one is MONEY but the invisible one is fear. The fear of not getting it in the first try and only having one company that has what I do and the company that uses the system I learned on designs shoes and sports clothing and is a bit more accessible by public transportation but they are not hiring and the similar bridal design company in Boston will close its doors this December the same time my job phases out at Comcast. All the visual sings point to it being the wrong time to attempt the leap, that it would be a miracle if I were to land a position in a company that required 2 years experience on a system I haven’t used know nothing about and all these other programs I never even looked at much less used. These to me are facts, and in the face of these I don’t see a future therefore no hope.

The battle within continues facts and reality stand against hope and faith as I waver in the face of opportunity the 3^rd and maybe final chance Life is presenting to me at this moment, should I play it safe and wait for a better climate or take the most daring ride and potentially drag my family on the craziest ride of all our existences? In my youth I was always up for a good adventure but Life seems intent on beating it out of me and that 19 year old spirit within me is yelling to be unleashed one more time and wants to carry me to the potentially greatest adventure of my life….!