Becoming Clear..

How to move on when you've played and lost? The easy answer is to get back in the game. Even when these words were spoken to another person, I still had a problem with them. My response "oh that's easy for you to say"

I'm not a kid that is riding his bike and falls off and if there is an audience he makes a seen but if that child is alone....most just dust themselves off and get back on and eventually learn how to ride that bike.

There is a difference because now I am an adult and there is something that happens in the journey from a child to an adult and that is "life" the "teacher" and most of us fail because instead of falling and getting back on we become aware and focused on a thing called "pain" (emotional and physical) and this is something I personally do not want to revisit and trying to avoid it seems to give it more power and the less new things you want to try until one becomes a coward and that only becomes evident when a friend from the past "all of a sudden" appears you know "oh guess who I ran into" and you get to chatting and THAT horrible question comes out of their lips "and what do you do for a living" and this after they spent the first half of the meet making you feel as if you have wasted the last twenty years of your life. Rewind go back and listen to what they were saying and before you give in to feeling like a total waste of space, all he really said was "I fell, dusted myself off and got back on again" ...... They didn't give up that's all and I'm sure there's more but at the core and the fact that they never said die. If the first way didn't work try it another way but the point was to "get back in".

So last year in my head a thought started to formulate and it was based on a few comments certain people made that got me thinking and inspired so since then I have been looking for that "bike"
After much thought I realized "why not start with what I know I can do". I started with very small steps and now am beginning to believe and even...hope and taking steps in that new direction....so here I am just hours from my first project in 15yrs. I'm going to get back on.....

Life is going to teach...are you willing to learn?
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