The journey I've been on started 16 years ago when I stopped on a well lit highway and made the "dark passenger" get into the trunk and I moved on. I believed I was free of this but 16 years later here I sit and he is next to me asking me why I did I do that, why?
He said: I helped you, I fed you and you grew but somebody got to you and somehow convinced you different. Why? Was all you saw not enough proof? Did you really think all that you saw was a lie?
I had no answer...the only thing I could offer was an apology but some how that was not enough. The "dark passenger" wanted more much more.....he demanded sacrifice....what was I to do; should I just put him back in the trunk and move on or should I try and reconnect?
So many angry and disturbed thoughts came back, all that holding back trying to do the right thing and what do I have to show for it? Not much just disappointment and sadness. no hopes no dreams. All I have is a day to day existence doing what I have to do.
Trust...hmm...do I dare go down that undefined road, or do I stay on the path that offers security the one that I know the one that will not let me down. The one that is clearly marked. The proven path....or do I make my own a new and adventure filled, action pack one. This is the choice and it must be made soon...or the door will close and the choice will be gone then I must accept what is given....not what I want...choices....the "dark passenger" is waiting...
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